Alright, I admit. I haven't been updating this blog as regularly as I would like.
And considering this is a blog about books, movies and MUSIC, today I've decided to show you the song that inspired the blog's name and url.
"Build a wall of books between us in our bed, repeat, repeat, repeat the words we both said....."
To me, this song has always been about estrangement. That state of paranoia that you reach in a relationship in which you feel that crippling, sickening feeling that it's not going to last.
This is demonstrated in the chorus when the persona wails in anguish, "I just want back in your head." The fact that this is repeated proves how important this is to her. And yet, the relationship seems to be "comfortable" ("Relax into the need, we get so comfortable")
Then there's also the hint of sexual tension in the verses. Don't forget that the "wall of books" is "between us in our bed". Perhaps the "wall of books" is the part of her that is over-intellectualising the relationship, or over-thinking things. The sexual tension is so palpable, that even holding hands seems painful, despite it being a "habit". Without being able to demonstrate love physically, the relationship falls into a state of disrepair.
And now she is left wanting to be back in her lover's head. With the lack of physical intimacy between them, she feels that she might "stray". Personally, I think this is more of a reflection of what the other person might do, and not the persona. After all, the persona is the one feeling the paranoia, and we're not sure how the other person might react to her statement.
Now, all this is a personal intepretation of the song. MY personal intepretation. This paticular song is written by the lovely Sara Quin, who is half of Tegan and Sara (one of my favorite bands of ALL TIME). Though annoyingly catchy, and somewhat repetitive, this song has proven itself to be deep and meaningful, and it shows a kind of despondency that is so rarely shown on the surface, but exists deeply within everyone who has been in a relationship. I know I've felt that feeling of "I don't think I'm good enough for you, and this is not going to last".
Either that, or I'm paticularly unconfident when it comes to these things. Hahahaha.
Now, if you think that ALL Tegan and Sara songs sound like this, you're half wrong. Half, because their music is easily identifiable. On the other hand, ALL their songs are unique in their own way. A friend of mine commented that you can never get bored listening to them. And you can't. There's little nuances here and there in their songs that you would have missed the first time. Not to mention they have an entire spectrum of songs in different genres. If you fancy a more folky sound, there's songs like 'Living Room' and 'Clever meals'. If you like angsty, sort of punk music, there's 'Northshore'. A more edgy rock sound is reflected in songs like 'Walking with a ghost'. Then there's other super catchy songs like 'The con' (one of my favourites), and 'Alligator' (which has prompted a children show remake of it -seriously, go google it) and Closer (now on Glee- the original is still more awesome though). Softer songs like 'Call it off' and 'Not Tonight' are paticularly sweet in my opinion. All these songs have struck a chord within me at some point of my life or another.
And though I'm straight, as straight as a yard stick, songs like these make me consider going bi. I'm seriously in love with them.
In fact, I'll be seeing them in concert in May, in Singapore! YAY!
xoxo
Eloise.
ps. Sorry for leaving you guys hanging at the Bingo story. I'll upload the third part as soon as I deem it satisfactory. I'm having a writer's block with this particular story, can't seem to end it as nicely as I'd like it to.
pps. More to come! (More book reviews, song reviews, and even movie reviews!
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